If You Have God,

You Have Everything.

FRIDAY, JANUARY 23RD, 2026. 9:32 P.M.

Dearest Light,

I’m sitting in front of my apartment, slightly tired after my daily skipping routine. My chest is still rising a little faster than normal, but my spirit feels calm. I’m listening to He Is Enough by Kaestrings, and I’m writing—because some things don’t let you rest until you put them into words.

If you’ve been here long enough, you already know this: as much as I write to you by the leading of the Holy Spirit, I’m also writing to myself. I always am. This is how I trace my footsteps with God. This is how I remember where I have been, what He has healed, what He has taught me, and what He is still doing.

I’m a lot of things—mostly good ones. And one thing I am very sure of is that I know God. Not in the “I’ve heard about Him” way, but in the I have met Him in rooms where no one else could help me kind of way. I have experienced Him in the best possible ways, in ways that rearranged my understanding of love, safety, and hope.

I know Him enough to tell you this with confidence: the best of Him is not in your past. And your best days are not behind you. I know Him enough to know that He can take your physical pain, your emotional exhaustion, your silent heartbreak, and carry it in ways your limited human understanding cannot comprehend. I know the God who sits in heaven and still chooses—daily, deliberately—to love you and me.

There are some beautiful things I know about my future. And interestingly, I don’t even pray for some of them as often anymore. I thank Him instead. That’s how sure I am. I trust Him. I trust His timing. I trust His process with my life. Every season, every delay, every quiet stretch. All my life.

I am not scared of death. Not because I think I have it all figured out, but because I try to live in a way that when I am gone, people will not only say good things about me. I want them to say, “Simi loved the Lord with all her heart, and she was bold about it.” I have preached on buses. I have spoken when my voice shook. And I can tell you this with certainty, nothing compares to the joy that only Christ gives.

But here is the point I really want you to hear.

The beauty I see in my life, both present and future, is not desirable to me if God is not there. Take the dreams. Take the plans. Take the success and the comfort. If God is absent, I do not want it. I love God deeply, and I constantly ask Him to help me love Him even more. Because loving God is not just a feeling; it is a decision you renew daily.

The part of my body I pray for the most is my heart. Oh, I know me and God knows. I pray that it remains soft and loyal. That it does not get distracted by things that look good but pull me away from Him. I pray that I will love God and choose Him all the days of my life, not only when obedience is easy, but even when it costs me something.

I often say that nothing matters as long as God is with me. But more than saying it, I want to live it. I want God to know that nothing can take His place in my heart. And I think you should live your life this way too.

Live in a way where God knows that nothing ranks above Him. Not family. Not romantic love. Not money. Not success. Not wisdom. Not the things of this world that promise fulfilment but never fully satisfy. Let God be first when no one is watching. Let Him be first when it is inconvenient. Let Him be first when it stretches you.

Let God consume you. Because life only makes sense when He is at the centre.

It's 9:55 p.m. and I'm listening to Desire by Kaestrings. I want to pray for us.

Lord, help us love You rightly and deeply. Help us love You more than the things You give, more than the future we see, more than the versions we are becoming. Guard our hearts from distractions that look like blessings but pull us away from You. Teach us to choose You daily, consciously, and joyfully.

If we are ever tempted to place anything above You, remind us that nothing compares to Your presence. Let our lives be proof that You are enough. Not just in our words, but in our decisions, my obedience, and our quiet moments with You.

Consume us, Lord. Stay with us. Walk with us. And let our greatest desire always be You. Amen.

Light, I really pray that you love God passionately. With all your life.